I'm feeling emotional. My life has been incredible lately; moving into a new place with my mom and my cats, meeting (and falling head over heels for) a new man, having cancer, Crohn's and other terrifying illnesses ruled out as the cause of my severe abdominal pain.
Life has been hard, too. The chronic pain, for one. Losing my father and my brother. Coming to terms with my worsening disability.
So Bigger On the Inside, Amanda Palmer's new song and first Patreon project really resonates with me. My favourite lines:
And I am tired of explaining
And of seeing so much hating
In the very same safe haven
Where I used to just see helping
I've been drunk and skipping dinner
Eating skin from off my fingers
And I tried to call my brother
But he no longer exists
I keep forgetting to remember
That he would have been much prouder
If he saw me shake these insults off
Instead of getting bitter....
I am bigger on the inside
But you have to come inside to see me
Otherwise you're only hating
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