I do not like routine, which is why I find this so frustrating:
I get accustomed to a motion that lasts for at least a few days... Say, a 30+ hour bus ride or a class or spending a lot of time with someone for a week straight.
When that changes, I'm shaken.
I'm so used to this routine of being with my mom nearly 24/7 after our 1 and a half week-long trip, that now I don't know what to do with myself when I'm alone. It makes me anxious. Verge-of-a-panic-attack anxious. And I don't know what to do about it.
Every therapist I've seen has prescribed routine. But what do you do when your routine is not routine? I'm not sure yet.